My Story

My Story

I don’t know what it’s like to be healthy or skinny for that matter, because I’ve never been either of those things. As I’ve grown up I’ve lost a decent amount of weight at times, but it never fails that years later it slowly creeps up on me because I don’t make a lifestyle change. During the summer of 2011 I weighed myself and I was at my heaviest. I was disgusted with myself but that didn’t motivate me to take initiative and do something about it. I can’t say I let myself get to that point due to lack of knowledge. I’ve never done anything to screw up my metabolism like a crazy fad diet, diet pills, etc. I know it requires hard work on my end to lose weight. Looking back at that time I didn’t care enough about myself to do anything about it.

I finally hit rock bottom in 2011 when I had a very messy breakup. I was crushed to say the least because it wasn’t expected. Is it ever expected really? I remember the morning after the breakup, I hadn’t slept all night, and went for a walk to clear my head. I walked and then started jogging; I jogged as far as I ever had on my 240lb frame. I felt better even if it was just for the time that I was exercising. I decided from then on I would keep this up to help cope with the greif I was feeling.

After a few months of walking and the occasional jogging, I joined a gym, and started strength training in addition to cardio. I’m not competitive by nature but I’ve been competing with myself lately to see what I can do. I feel confident and accomplished; two things I haven’t felt in a long time! I am more energetic than ever and I actually look forward to working out (what?!) — that actually happens!

In Spring 2012 I was down to 208lbs, and I completed a 5K, 10K, and a 10-miler. See, anything is possible!

My intention with this blog is to keep myself accountable; I still have more weight to lose, and I want to continue to live a healthy lifestyle even after I hit my goal weight. Most importantly, I hope what I write helps or inspires someone. I’m learning it’s a struggle to take back years of being sedentary and bad food choices. However, there’s no time like the present!

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    Alan Ali
    January 25, 2012 at 1:01 pm

    I really really love this post! It’s posts like this that push me to keep going.

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      January 25, 2012 at 3:40 pm

      Thanks, so much Alan. That means a lot coming from you! 🙂

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    March 13, 2012 at 11:06 pm

    Pam, you are truly an inspiration. Last August i stopped seeing the guy i was dating (we were together for a year). The way he ended things as well made me feel bleh. I had to leave the job i had because we both worked together (and also a lot of my co-workers were leaving, too). So i went job hunting and found the wonderful job that i have now a month after searching. I am really happy where i am and i don’t look back. I think i’m ready to take that next step in taking care of myself and my body. Now with the time change, i have an hour after work before the sun sets so i will go for walks downtown :)) Hopefully i will get back up to going for 1-hour jogs again 😀

    I’m so proud of you, Pam!

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      March 20, 2012 at 2:39 pm

      Sorry, it’s taken a week to get back to you! Sorry to hear about your experience, but it sounds like you’re in a job you like pretty well. Even if you have days where you’re not moving as much as some, just keep on moving no matter how little it is. It all adds up eventually! 🙂 Too bad we’re stuck in different states, we could totally go walking together! 😀

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    Tim Cleary
    April 9, 2012 at 5:00 pm

    Awesome post Pam! This was really inspiring to read. I wished I had read it sooner, but my life has been a whirlwind of busy time consuming things lately. I finally have some free time at the office, due to everyone on Spring Break..yay.

    But seriously though, Pam…you have been doing AMAZING! I wish that I could’ve been there more for you after your break up, but I am so happy that you have found this new you. You are an inspiration, you are beautiful, and you are living life to its fullest! I’m so proud to see how far you have come and am excited to be your friend during this journey. It’s not too often that we get to take these roads to self discovery. Stay strong and pave your future in your own way. I’ll always be right here if you ever need a thing. 🙂

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      April 11, 2012 at 1:47 pm

      Yay for finally having some free time!

      Can I say it was so awesome to see you at the 10-miler, and you finishing it with us? I hope we can meet up in the future for walks/runs/dinner/whatever! I’ve missed you! 🙂

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