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Day to Day

The inspiration of tight pants

It’s no secret that I’ve been off the wagon for about a year now. The weight has slowly crept up, and at the time I was dealing with a lot of other emotions, such as anxiety and depression. Needless to say, working out and eating healthy was far from my first priority with school and everything else.

Today as I was getting ready for work, I realized my usual pair of khakis was in the wash and I had to face the truth. I put on a pair of Dickies’ that are a size 18, they weren’t exactly loose when I bought them, and they have zero stretch to them. As I pulled them up to my hips, I realized just how much weight I’ve put back on. I inhaled and sucked in long enough to get them zipped and reluctantly buttoned. I found a loose blouse I could wear so no one could see my body protruding over my pants. At least I hope they couldn’t.

I’ve made a point to not weigh myself recently and I know it’s not good to avoid the scale when you’re not exercising and eating poorly. I know. I should’ve weighed myself when we got back from Europe, because we walked anywhere from 15-23K steps a day even on days we spent the airport. I know I lost some weight on vacation. Even as we were coming back, my thought was: I’ve got a good start, focus on getting over 10-12K steps a day. If I lived in Europe, that wouldn’t be a problem. Living in Kentucky, I can’t get that just by commuting. I actually have to do some work if I want to get the recommended 10K steps.

Sure, I could make more excuses as to why I’ve put on weight or how hard it is to get start over again. It is hard as hell to start over yet again. Unfortunately, my excuses don’t burn any calories. Even if it’s hot out, I have a gym membership that I’m paying for every month; I have workout videos if I don’t feel like driving. I need to own this weight I’ve put on and quit talking about the fact it’s there and do something about it.

I’m not going to make some sort of sweeping declaration like I’m going to do x, y, and z, because I will set myself up for disappointment changing too many things at once. I’m just going to try moving more at the moment to get my body back in the habit. Typically when I exercise, I tend to eat better and eat less bad stuff without even trying. We shall see how this goes…

Getting Started

Finding motivation

Starting Monday I begin a dietbet challenge. I just recently heard about this site and quite honestly I need something to give me motivation. Every dietbet has a certain amount that you have to put in to join, the one I joined apparently is one of the “cheaper” ones, but is still $30. At the end of the challenge, every one who achieves the set goal (in this particular bet it’s 4% of your body weight) receives money! Currently there’s almost $6000 in the pot so it could be a good payout if you reach your goal. If you want to join the challenge I’m apart of there’s still some time and it’s only 28 days of your time. Here’s the link: Anti-Jared’s Summer Blast.

I’ve been struggling a lot lately trying to eat better and lose weight. It’s not for lack of trying. I can’t remember if I mentioned this in a recent post or not but I was diagnosed with hypothyroidism about six months ago. They’re still working on getting my thyroid level down to where it needs to be. It was around 9.8 when I first began and was down to 5.6 during my last check up. It’s been incredibly hard to lose weight despite the fact that my doctor said I might lose weight easier. I spent well over a month counting every little thing I put into my body and exercising, and I was lucky if I saw a single pound loss some weeks. It’s frustrating to say the least.

Due to my underactive thyroid, I go through spells of low energy a lot, and most recently I’ve been feeling more anxiety and depression. None of these things help weight loss. I try hard to remain positive but this week was a rough one. I’ve done things that I’ve had to do, like go to work, but other than that I just want to stay in bed and sleep. The weather has been beautiful lately, so it makes me sad not to have the energy to get out and enjoy it.

Something else that has been bringing me down is watching friends constantly write about everything they’re doing in terms of getting healthy and how much success they’re seeing with their bodies and on the scale. Yes, I want to see friends successful, but there’s a fine line between being motivating and making others feel bad about their choices and that they aren’t doing enough. Please think of that because you don’t know who you’re making feel bad and discouraging.

I had my lovely boyfriend take full body shots of me this week so I can compare before and after the dietbet. Looking at these photos made me cringe a bit. I’m not sure if I’m alone in this or not, but I have this idea of how I look based on how I feel, and in my head (most of the time), I feel much thinner. Seeing these photos makes me think about areas I need to focus on which I guess is a good thing.

Getting back to the dietbet, I’ve accepted I might not see big numbers each week given past experience, but I need something to keep me moving. I’ve spent $30 on worse things. I’m going to try my hardest and do everything within my power to make positive changes in my life and my mind. Yes, I want to win some extra money but I’m using this dietbet as motivation to keep going. Getting my energy level back to where it used to be is too important to me right now.

I hope things are well in your world!

Day to Day

Looking back + looking forward

I’ve been putting off buying new running shoes for a while. I love shoes and I’m not sure why I’ve been procrastinating this task. I currently have two pairs of running shoes (the same style — but one is almost 9 months old and the other 5) and a pair I use for strength training. I’m getting rid of the 9 month old and getting a new pair to start training for a mini-marathon in November. (I’ve gone crazy if you can’t tell!)

I’m not really one to hold onto things for sentimental value, but I’ve been having a hard time parting with this pair of Brooks. I bought these in September as I got started. These shoes have seen over 1,000 miles. They’ve seen a lot of blood, sweat, and tears along the way. OK, maybe no blood but definitely a lot of the other two. And so instead of holding onto them, I decided to take a picture of what’s left of them.

During the 10-miler my friend Christina kept encouraging me to think about how far I’ve come more often, and to more or less not to brush it off as not being a big deal. It is a big deal. When I began, I could barely run a few feet without having to stop, 9 months later I can run a lot further, have completed a 5K, 10K, and 10-miler, (people congratulate me on this and often I’m quick to say “Oh, I walked most of it” — see?) and in 6 months I can say I completed a mini-marathon. I’ve also been more active at the gym in terms of more than just going there to workout. I joined their Relay for Life time last month and walked in the wees hours of the morning for the team, and most recently completed a 6-week TRX class.

Honestly, this whole experience has changed my life. I still have a ways to go, but if this is how I feel just 9-months in, what will I feel like years down the road? My outlook on life has changed, I feel like I can take on whatever comes at me, and most of all, I’m the happiest I’ve ever been and I’d like to think it’s showing. :D

Races

10-miler completed .. what’s next?

I have my game face on now! lol Photo: Chris Watson

A little over a week ago, I completed the final race of the Louisville Triple Crown; the 10-miler. When I first signed up for this race, I hadn’t given thought to doing the other two races (the 5K and 10K), in retrospect, I am thankful I did. I would not have been prepared for what I was getting myself into.

I was super excited the week of the race, and I might have overtrained a little bit in a fit of excitement. I took the Thursday and Friday before the race off in prep for Saturday. This 10-miler was the biggest challenge I have ever faced physically but I was ready!

Saturday morning came… I felt I had started out strong, but it seemed like I was losing steam through parts of the race, especially through Iroquois Park. My friend Christina stayed by my side throughout the entire race, and I am super thankful for that.

Around mile seven, I was ready for the race to be over. I have walked about 10 miles in the span of a day, but only got up to about 7 miles at one time, and so my body was wondering what I was doing to it. My friend Tim, who wasn’t officially participating in the race, met up with us, and finished the last three miles with us. It was such a pleasant surprise to see him and gave me the strength to finish strong.

As we entered the final lap of the 10-miler, my sister, brother-in-law, and nieces greeted us as we entered the stadium. And as we were coming around to the finish line, I saw a beautiful Canon L lens pointed at us from the bleachers. It was my friend Chris, who also completed the Triple Crown and rocked it, he was peeking out from behind his camera and smiling. As we crossed the finish line, my friend Nick was waiting with his camera, too. I am so thankful for supportive friends who came out or waited for us after the race.

By the end of the week, I had completed almost 50 miles; my best week yet! I felt a little sad after it was all over. I don’t really know what’s next for me. I know I’m doing the Color Run in July. I think by then I would be able to run the full 3.1 miles. We’ll see…