Day to Day

Comfort Zones : Part 2

On Tuesday I went to the gym with the intention of meeting with my trainer but somewhere our lines got crossed and she didn’t have me down. She invited me to join the kickboxing class that was about to start, and despite never attempting kickboxing outside of my Taebo dvds, I really wasn’t sure what I was getting myself into. One of the ladies who is also in my sculpting class assured me it wasn’t as bad as our Thursday class. It was as if our trainer heard this because it wasn’t an easy class at all. It was physically demanding but it wasn’t until the very last cool down exercise that I started feeling that familiar lightheaded/nauseous feeling again. I powered through and then took a bit of a breather to cool down. I left sooner than I should’ve and finally had to pull over. I lied there in the car so frustrated. My sister was in town and I finally accepted she would have to take me home. At that moment I wasn’t even feeling sad; I was mad as hell! Why did this keep happening? What was I doing wrong? Anger typically fuels me more than feeling sorry for myself. So that night I ate something light for dinner and went out for a jog near sunset. I burned well over 800 calories from those two activities. Those two experiences were enough to light a fire under me. I need to get my upper body stronger and the only way to do that is to continue on my journey.

Thursday was my last sculpting class and I was a little disappointed when it was over because I wondered what I would do now. This class (and attending that kickboxing class) has pushed me out of my comfort zone. I’ve used equipment in the gym I was too scared to use before — specifically exercise balls. For some reason I had it in my head that I would sit on it and it would burst. I learned that using those balls to do crunches actually feels better on my back than lying on the floor and it’s much easier to remember to breathe on those balls as well. Also, using those training ropes are so much harder than they appear.

I have come so far in the past year and a half. I’ve never stuck with any fitness routine this long. I have been knocked down quite a few times but I keep getting back up and I know there’s a reason for that. I would’ve given up last year if I didn’t truly want this. It may take me years to get my BMI to what is considered a “healthy” range but I will get there.

What sort of positive things happened to you this week or recently that helped you push on through?

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    Ashley
    July 20, 2013 at 12:43 pm

    Yay, Pam! I love reading stuff like this from you. You’re human yet keep powering through. You’ve inspired me to step out of my comfort zone. I’m going to take the yoga class at my gym I’ve been too afraid to do.

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      Pam
      July 20, 2013 at 8:48 pm

      That really means a lot coming from you, Ashley! I’m glad you’ve decided to take that yoga class. I know you’ll do an awesome job; I can’t wait to hear about it! :) xx

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    Stephanie C
    July 20, 2013 at 1:55 pm

    I know that has to be frustrating! But it sounds like you are ready to persevere which is great! I actually have an issue with walking, as weird as that seems. If I walk for long distances I start getting hives on my upper legs that itch and burn for hours! Hiking, biking, and other activities don’t bother me at all. It’s tough in the begining to find what works for you even in the best situation. And I highly recommend using the stability ball. It actually got me my first 6 pack with very minimal exercise, just incorporating it in my regular weight routine. Plus it’s great for push ups when you are upper body strength challenged like me, because you can take off much of your body weight by positioning it higher on your abdomen. :-)

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      Pam
      July 20, 2013 at 8:54 pm

      Maybe you’re allergic to walking? hehe. In all serious though, I do remember reading something about that happening to some people. I’m glad you’re able to do other activities!

      I am very upper body strength challenged as well so it might be a good idea to buy one of these so I can practice in the comfort of my home. Do you have any other favorite exercises with the stability ball?

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    Dorothy Inman
    July 20, 2013 at 2:08 pm

    Yay Pam! Way to have a positive outlook when things look so dreary. Might I suggest maybe eating something healthy protein heavy before you work out? If you are burning that many calories chances are your body just needs a little more energy. You may also google it to see what the pros suggest (because I’m not a pro at all, don’t play one on TV either.) I am about to write a blog about my experience, but I can tell you pushing yourself beyond your comfort zone is definitely a tough challenge. I may have told you this before, but you are a rock star in my book!

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      Pam
      July 20, 2013 at 9:10 pm

      Thanks for the comment Dorothy and thanks for sharing the link on your Facebook; I appreciate it!

      It very well could be that I need to eat more protein before going in. I’m always worried about eating too much before these classes because I don’t want to run off to the bathroom throwing up, but it’s certainly worth a try.

      You’re the rockstar! I can’t wait to hear about your triathlon!

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    Anita
    July 20, 2013 at 9:08 pm

    I was going to suggest a protein snack, too! Maybe 45 min before your workout. I’m wondering if its a blood sugar thing.

    I learned this week that I CAN do step ups! Next stop will be to attempt modified burpees. :)

    I’m proud of you for your fire. Keep going.

    Upper body strength is pretty easy to get going with some dumbbell training! I weight train and can bench 65 now. ((When I started heavy lifting I could do 25 but it was tough.) I have a ways to go, but reading your blog, and your Fb an MFP posts keep me motivated! Thanks for posting. Keep it up!

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      Pam
      July 25, 2013 at 4:25 pm

      It very well could be a blood sugar thing. I guess it’ll take trial and error to figure it out.

      Good job on the step ups and I know you’ll kick those burpees ass! lol. And congrats on benching 65 lbs! That’s really impressive!

      You have been doing an awesome job and you have been inspiring me. MFP has definitely been influential the past few weeks. Thank you for sharing your journal with us! :)

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    Betty
    July 21, 2013 at 6:59 am

    You got this! You keep going back for more which is always to be commended.

    • Reply
      Pam
      July 25, 2013 at 4:25 pm

      Thanks, Betty!

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    Sarah Beth
    July 22, 2013 at 9:26 am

    Great job pushing yourself! You’ve inspired me to do the same. Not 100% sure what I’m going to do yet, but the marine gym is looking better and better to start some weight training.

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      Pam
      July 25, 2013 at 4:26 pm

      I can’t imagine exercising the heat in where you and Manny are. How do you all deal? You should join the marine gym. Is it pretty much the same as a normal gym? You might meet fellow ladies who are over there with their hubbies! :)

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      Pam
      July 25, 2013 at 4:27 pm

      …and also you are doing great! I am incredible impressed with your weight loss! It’s definitely taken determination! You rock!

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